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I often wonder about the way things are playing out in my life…

You know – why did this happen? How am I going to deal with that? Why don’t my plans work out? What am I doing wrong? What should I do next?

I always try and go back to my faith to keep me going. I know not everybody believes the same things I do, and I am not going to try and convert you or convince you of my viewpoint. But to me it is something I need in my life, and it works for me. If not for that, I might have run into the sea a long time ago! Or hit somebody with a baseball bat. Or I might have decided to go and live in a cave.

Sometimes it feels as if everything is working against me, to make life as difficult as possible. I don’t always know how to deal with that. I get emotional often, sometimes I talk about it, often I pray for guidance. I do allow myself a day to feel and emote, and then I have to carry on. Just because things aren’t going my way, does not mean the end of life – life carries on, and so should I.

Fortunately today is not one of the bad (emotional, sad) days, but I am wondering about the reason for certain important things being denied me (by outside influences, like Covid and the world’s hysteria about it) – it doesn’t make sense to me. I have to believe there is a reason for it, but for the life of me, I cannot imagine what those reasons can be…

Today is gardening day, so I will connect with Mother Earth, and hopefully that will soothe my ruffled feathers.

Whatever it is that you believe in (if not in God) – karma, serendipity, luck, bad luck, coincidence – I hope light shines on you today, and that you have a good one!! 😀

About zelmare

Hallo to you from the southern most part of the African continent - South Africa!! To put my life in a nutshell : I raised 3 absolutely fabulous kids (I'm sure you will hear a lot about them, since I am a very proud mama), I became a doting grandmother two years ago and recently bought a house in the Western Cape, and in doing so, realized a dream I've had for many, many years. I love traveling, which I don't do often enough. I love living a simple life - cooking, gardening, knitting and of course, blogging. There is still a lot I want to do and see in my lifetime, but time will tell how much of that I can actually accomplish. I am looking forward to meeting a lot of lovely new friends and interesting people here on WordPress! :)

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  1. I can so relate to this feeling that outside forces are conspiring against me. My faith, family, dogs and above all, my inborn stubborn spirit are what keep me going. Thanks for sharing and helping me not feel so alone in this madness. xo

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    • I think maybe at least a quarter of all human beings feel that way at the moment, but each of our realities are different, so we cope differently. A lot of people hide their real feelings – I don’t understand why. Good to know we are not alone in our feelings! We can only pray things change back to near normality soon. 🙂

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  2. I think that is a very normal feeling!! But… still not fun!! I sure don’t enjoy it!! It is good practice to turn to your faith!! Just keep doing that!! Sending love! ❤

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