I often wonder about the way things are playing out in my life…
You know – why did this happen? How am I going to deal with that? Why don’t my plans work out? What am I doing wrong? What should I do next?
I always try and go back to my faith to keep me going. I know not everybody believes the same things I do, and I am not going to try and convert you or convince you of my viewpoint. But to me it is something I need in my life, and it works for me. If not for that, I might have run into the sea a long time ago! Or hit somebody with a baseball bat. Or I might have decided to go and live in a cave.
Sometimes it feels as if everything is working against me, to make life as difficult as possible. I don’t always know how to deal with that. I get emotional often, sometimes I talk about it, often I pray for guidance. I do allow myself a day to feel and emote, and then I have to carry on. Just because things aren’t going my way, does not mean the end of life – life carries on, and so should I.
Fortunately today is not one of the bad (emotional, sad) days, but I am wondering about the reason for certain important things being denied me (by outside influences, like Covid and the world’s hysteria about it) – it doesn’t make sense to me. I have to believe there is a reason for it, but for the life of me, I cannot imagine what those reasons can be…
Today is gardening day, so I will connect with Mother Earth, and hopefully that will soothe my ruffled feathers.
Whatever it is that you believe in (if not in God) – karma, serendipity, luck, bad luck, coincidence – I hope light shines on you today, and that you have a good one!! 😀