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A Winter’s Tale.

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Not Shakespeare’s play, or the book by Mark Helprin, not even the songs by Queen or David Essex, although both are definitely worth a listen.

Just my own little Sunday story.

It has been unseasonably warm the last week or so. I’m a believer that winter has to be properly cold, to kill off bugs and other nasties, and I love winter, so I was a bit peeved about the warmer weather.

But today is colder, and I am not going anywhere, so I am doing the ‘slow’ thing today. I woke up, fed the cat and dog, made myself some coffee, and took myself and the coffee back to bed. Not to sleep, no. But it was the warmest place to be, so I read in bed for an hour before getting up and getting dressed.

I had to do a quick stop at a shop, unfortunately, but I needed one or two ingredients to make my and my SO’s favourite date and nut loaf. It is baking as we speak, and smells delicious. I am sorry that he is not here to share it with me, but I did make him one before he left to go back north.

I can not deny that I am feeling a bit out of sorts today. I had a wonderful long chat with my son in Ireland last night, but today I am missing him and my Canadian children fiercely. And even though I saw my son in SA about 2 weeks ago, and my SO as well, when the missing starts, it encompasses them all. It is in fact causing a pain in my chest and a constriction in my throat. So I am trying to rise above that by keeping sort of busy, but it will probably get the better of me sometime during the day… I will definitely go for a long walk with Daisy later, to get some good physical exercise too.

So that is basically my winter Sunday story. Not a very chirpy one, I know, but weekends on my own often result in these emotions.

But let me try and end on a positive note. Although it is colder today, the sun is shining outside, the birds sound deliriously happy because they are chirping away like crazy, and the date loaf is nearly ready to come out of the oven! I will be having at least two slices with some tea within the next hour – yum! I had a good night’s sleep, and I am still hearty and hale!

So all you good folk and gentle people, have yourself a wonderful Sunday, and be kind to yourself.

About Mondays and staying sane.

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Walking on the Excelsior Wine Estate in the Robertson district of the Western Cape.

The weekend is done and dusted.

Monday, in other words.

Today I am seriously going to start getting ready for the ‘building’ that will hopefully start happening on the 22nd of this month, to divide my guesthouse into two units. I need to have a meeting with the builder to make sure we are on the same page, I need to get the quote back from a cabinet maker, and I need to go and look for some hardware. I also want to go and have a look at wallpaper that a friend has (she used to renovate houses, and she has some rolls of wallpaper left over) because I think that it will make a room a lot more interesting than just painting it.

My real estate job is a serious bust at the moment, but thankfully the guesthouse has been doing very well, so I am really hoping that having two units will make it even better.

As I’ve told you before, I do like time on my own, but I am not quite hermit material yet. Although, in all honesty, I do find it more and more difficult to leave my house, even for grocery shopping… There comes a time when I’ve had enough of being alone, and that time has come. It helps a lot to know that my SO is coming down here in two weeks’ time! Happy days! Now all I have to do is try and hold onto my sanity for another 10-12 days…

To get through the weekend, I took Daisy for a nice long walk on Saturday, through the vineyards on a wine estate in the area. We both enjoyed being outdoors and in such beautiful surroundings. There are not many things that come close to a bit of mild exercise in nature to make you feel better. It gave me the necessary boost for the rest of the weekend.

There really are many benefits to walking everyday, and I really try to do just that. The advantages are not only physical, but also mental. If you don’t believe me, have a look at this article. I must admit that there are days that I just decide ‘I don’t wanna’ and then I block my mind off from the advantages, even though I know I should just get on with it. Maybe this week I’ll get myself to walk everyday…

Good luck for the week ahead, be happy, healthy and safe! 🙂

Alone/Lonely

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Friday night, and I’m home alone.

I hate being on my own on a Friday night, but tonight it was my own doing. My choice. But now I hate it. I’m trying to convince myself that I’m loving it, but I don’t believe myself.

The positive side of it is that I can do what I want, watch whatever I want on TV (there’s nothing to watch, by the way), eat what I want (nope, nothing I feel like in the house), take a long, leisurely bath (yip, did that). But, if I’m not alone because I really want to be, I’m lonely. Simple as that.

I don’t have a problem with my own company, since I’m an introvert, so I generally do not enjoy idle chitchat, especially not with random strangers. I’m in a relationship with a Leo – a total extrovert, who can chat with anybody, anywhere. You see the problem?

But here’s how I get myself out of the lonely funk:

  1. I get on the internet, and I start listening to music. I might start of with sad songs, like the one I’m listening to now – Everybody Hurts by Kelly Clarkson and Pink, but as I’m scrolling down, the feel and tempo might start changing. Music is magic!
  2. I always feel like I want to put my feelings into words, so I start writing. In this case, I blog. I haven’t done so in months, but as soon as the music started playing, I automatically opened WordPress, and here I am! Feeling better already.
  3. I get myself a glass of wine, and something to snack on. Wine seems to do the trick, especially combined with good music.

That’s basically it. I give myself another ten to fifteen minutes, and I’ll only be ‘alone’, not feeling ‘lonely’ any more. 🙂

You guys have yourselves a wonderful weekend!

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