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Still eating dust, and anybody else out there who’s had enough?

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Nothing to do with my post, but a little island of calm in a mad world.
Photo by Dario Fernandez Ruz on Pexels.com

Yip.

Although things have moved along a bit with the alterations on the guesthouse, we are still eating dust, listening to noise and living in chaos.

I can see things changing drastically within about two working days (I really, really hope it does), but for now everything still feels crazy and uncomfortable.

I am upset about how we are all being manipulated by our governments. I am not a puppet on strings, and I cannot remember giving anyone the right to decide for me how I should live my life. Initially I thought it was a good idea to be cautious about this virus that seemed to have taken the world by storm, but now things are just plain ridiculous. At which point do you decide to return life to normal? Because at this rate it is never going to happen. How can you continuously close everything down every time a few more people get the virus? There are reports from all over about how unreliable the tests are for a start. The tests are unreliable, the vaccines are not safe, nobody seems to know for how long they will protect you, or if it is safe for pregnant women, older people, or anyone for that matter. Yet still nothing can return to normal. Businesses must continue to close down. People must continue to lose their jobs.

And yet, we accept all this without a word of protest, as if it is the way it should be…

Do you know the parable about the frogs? If you put them in cold water, make a fire under the pot, they will not even realize that they are in water that is constantly getting hotter and hotter, until they are cooked – and then it is too late.

Oi…a scary, scary thing to allow others to make all these decisions for us, don’t you think?

Feeling a bit ‘meh’…

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Come fly with me, come fly, come fly away…

I haven’t posted for three whole days!

Oh my, oh my… Quelle horreur… 😉 Not ! But I would have liked to do a post on the 1st of March, since that is officially the start of autumn in the southern hemisphere, and I’m all into that! 😀

Somehow it didn’t happen for me yesterday. I did take my laptop and I opened up the ‘write’ page, but I found myself staring blankly at the screen – just like I imagine a zombie would. And then the cat wanted to get on my lap, and for the moment, what Cat wants, Cat gets. (BTW, he is doing better everyday.) So I had to put the laptop down, and that was that!

We had our first seasonal rain yesterday in the late afternoon. It was a complete blessing after the heat and mugginess of the day. We had a quick ‘storm’ – some heavy wind combined with rain – to start off with, with some soft rain following right after that. So that cooled everything down nicely. It was such a relief! I hope it is the start of a good rainy season.

I am feeling a bit out of sorts lately. I can easily sit and do nothing for hours, which is not a good thing as far as I’m concerned. I honestly think this Covid nonsense is getting into my head at last. And the constant heat. When I’m feeling like that, I don’t even pick up my knitting. What? Gasp!!!! I know, I know … I actually haven’t touched my knitting for at least two days, and not because I’m too busy. So I have to do something about that, I think.

I went out and bought some gardening stuff this morning, just a teeny tiny bit of things. I’m going to feed my orchid now, and I want to do an experiment with a tomato plant that I saw on YouTube. I will let you know how that turns out. Since my disaster with the table renovation, I haven’t done anything further about that, since I had guests in the guesthouse, and I visited my son and daughter-in-law over the weekend, and I plain didn’t feel like it yesterday and today, but I will definitely carry on with that project tomorrow. I will absolutely get that done this week.

The tomato seedlings are doing well.

So… I quickly wanted to give my orchid some food, and then I noticed darn ants all over and inside the pot! Of course I immediately took the plant out of the pot, washed all the ants off, and since it was already ‘unpotted’, I decided trim the roots that don’t look so well, and to also re-pot while I’m at it. Lucky orchid, fed, trimmed and potted all in one fell swoop!

Washed and trimmed.
Fertilized.
Re-potted.

I hope you all have a wonderful Tuesday, if not quite so wonderful, at least a safe one. 🙂

My passive aggressive side.

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Dramatic sunset, many years ago.

No, not the same as my inner bitch.

Somedays I am just so frustrated that I can start punching and breaking things. But I never do. Or to be hundred percent honest, I hardly ever do. I also hide my true feelings most of the time. I may seem a bit more distant than normal (I go very quiet), but other than that people will hardly notice that I am upset or angry. I do not like confrontation, I do not like fighting, so I’ve learnt to suppress my feelings.

On the days that I unleash those bottled up emotions, it is not a pretty sight. And those closest to me, bear the brunt of it, which is normally my SO*. It does not happen often – actually very rarely, so there is that…

Recent circumstances have tested my ‘patience’ to the limit. This pandemic shit is really pushing my buttons at the moment. I want to start blaming someone for this frustration, but as usual, I won’t. And for the most part, I can’t, because, COVID! But I cannot help thinking that if ‘this’ or ‘that’ was different, this situation would not have happened.

I am big on changing things that are not working, but some things just can’t be changed, no matter how much I think about it, or wish it. So I have to learn to live with it, stoically. Even if it is killing me inside.

I might just yell at my poor, patient SO, or treat him shitty a couple of times (- never intentionally though!!!) This time around I may even break a few things, or kick something. But you will never know.

*SO – Significant Other

Rebelling.

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Atomic…. A modern nuclear bomb explosion in the desert.

I am battling with a few issues in my life at the moment.

Of course, this worldwide pandemic nonsense is not making any of these issues easier to digest, in fact, it has a direct negative impact on my ability to process it. I am not going to spell those ‘issues’ out for you, because that is not the important point here.

The point is, I am finding things difficult at the moment. I have to figure out how to cope with it, how to sort it out, without going completely bonkers.

Also, I am making it sound a whole lot worse than it is, which is not my intention. I do go about my day normally, but I am conscious all the time of something niggling at the back of my head, in my heart, my being.

I know for a fact that once the powers that be decide that the only way forward for the world is to carry on as normal, half of this weight will drop off of me.

I know a lot of people do not feel the same way, which is fine, but I also know a heck of a lot of people actually do. You feel your way, I feel my way – we are individual human beings, each with our own mindset, and that is maybe part of the big problem…

Here is the funny thing – the positive cases go up, the ‘leaders’ close things down – the numbers go down. Then they open up again, the numbers go up again. They close down again. And on and on. So, are they going to do this open/close game into infinity?

And while they are doing this, our lives are in limbo. Our businesses go under. Our family ties suffer. Our minds are going into places it has never been before. The rebel in us comes out.

I foresee trouble in the future, because there will come a day that the people on the ground decide enough is enough – we want our lives back. This cannot go on indefinitely. It has gone on too long as it is. And like I said, you are more than welcome to disagree with me.

Sleep – a wonderous thing.

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Blue moon, earlier this month.

I am NOT a morning person, so WHY am I waking up at the crack of dawn these days???? WHY???

I was awake at 4.28 this morning. 😦

One of my favourite things to do is sleep. I don’t mean that I sleep all the time, or even a lot, but I used to love going to bed at night with the prospect of a good, long, deep sleep about to happen. Now it is not happening anymore.

I’m about to try a range of things to try and get my sleep back.

I’m going to try and go to bed around the same time every night. I’m used to going to bed when I feel like I’m about to fall asleep on the couch, which is anything between half past nine to half past eleven. Never earlier, and rarely later. And then I used to wake up around seven in the morning. So from last night, I’m going to go to bed at 10pm, every night. Routine.

I will seriously attempt not going onto social media or any electronic devices for the last hour before I go to bed. (TV doesn’t count as an electronic device, right?)

Read a book. I’ve started reading a book last night, and will continue to do so every night as the last thing I do before lights out. (I actually used to do that!) I didn’t get very far last night before my eyes started to droop, so maybe that will help getting me off to Lalaland…

I need to get more physically active, which might help. I walk with my dog most days, but it seems that is not enough. I refuse to go to the gym, so I’ll have to work something out that will tire me out.

I’ve heard that lavender helps for people battling to sleep, so I even have a small bouquet of lavender on my bedside table now.

An option I’m not ready to entertain yet, is that a lot of people need less sleep as they grow older… Please, NO! Until I’ve exhausted all other avenues, I’ll assume that my sleeplessness is because of financial issues. Maybe it’s my biorhythms that are out of whack. Or Covid. Yes, let’s blame it on the pandemic!!

Hopefully after this whole pandemic schlepp is over, I’ll get to sleep well again. In the meantime I will try all the above, and see if that gets me back to my normal sleeping patterns.

Any ideas from your side? Maybe you’ve tried something that worked for you – I’m willing to give it a go!

Until we chat again, sleep tight, but don’t let the bed bugs bite! 🙂