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A Winter’s Tale.

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Not Shakespeare’s play, or the book by Mark Helprin, not even the songs by Queen or David Essex, although both are definitely worth a listen.

Just my own little Sunday story.

It has been unseasonably warm the last week or so. I’m a believer that winter has to be properly cold, to kill off bugs and other nasties, and I love winter, so I was a bit peeved about the warmer weather.

But today is colder, and I am not going anywhere, so I am doing the ‘slow’ thing today. I woke up, fed the cat and dog, made myself some coffee, and took myself and the coffee back to bed. Not to sleep, no. But it was the warmest place to be, so I read in bed for an hour before getting up and getting dressed.

I had to do a quick stop at a shop, unfortunately, but I needed one or two ingredients to make my and my SO’s favourite date and nut loaf. It is baking as we speak, and smells delicious. I am sorry that he is not here to share it with me, but I did make him one before he left to go back north.

I can not deny that I am feeling a bit out of sorts today. I had a wonderful long chat with my son in Ireland last night, but today I am missing him and my Canadian children fiercely. And even though I saw my son in SA about 2 weeks ago, and my SO as well, when the missing starts, it encompasses them all. It is in fact causing a pain in my chest and a constriction in my throat. So I am trying to rise above that by keeping sort of busy, but it will probably get the better of me sometime during the day… I will definitely go for a long walk with Daisy later, to get some good physical exercise too.

So that is basically my winter Sunday story. Not a very chirpy one, I know, but weekends on my own often result in these emotions.

But let me try and end on a positive note. Although it is colder today, the sun is shining outside, the birds sound deliriously happy because they are chirping away like crazy, and the date loaf is nearly ready to come out of the oven! I will be having at least two slices with some tea within the next hour – yum! I had a good night’s sleep, and I am still hearty and hale!

So all you good folk and gentle people, have yourself a wonderful Sunday, and be kind to yourself.

PEACE.

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Peace…

See this pic ↑ ?

That right there is peace.

To me at least. (I saw these beautiful ladies on my way back from a neighbouring town today, and I had to stop to say ‘hi’ and take a few pictures.)

Just like a few places make me feel at home, a few things/places allow me to feel peace, in my heart and soul.

I farmed with cattle for about 7 years, and that was some of the most fulfilling years of my life. Of course it was really hard work too, but being amongst the cattle, especially very early in the morning or in the evening, brought a feeling to my heart that is very hard to describe. The sound of them lowing softly, or pulling the stalks of grass off the tuft, and munching it when everything else is quiet all around – magic.

But of course, life happens and things change. Life is a journey – onward and upward.

Fortunately, I now live close to the coast, which is another place where I can feel peace. A bit weird, since the sea crashing onto the beach is everything but peaceful, but the breaking waves start falling into a rhythm of their own when you watch and listen for long enough. The sounds, together with the smell and the breathtaking beauty of the ocean is healing in itself.

Closer to home, my back garden is a place of peace – mostly. That is, if one of the neighbours is not cutting grass or entertaining visitors, or busy with a grinder or something else that makes a noise… But certain times of the day, I kick off my shoes, and I take my coffee or glass of wine, and I go sit in my garden with my toes in the grass. I listen to all the different species of birds going about their business, I enjoy the breeze (hopefully!) and I unwind. Peace.

Where do you feel peace? It is important to know that, because we all need our pockets of peace every single day. 🙂

The trick is to stay calm…I think

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‘My mountains’, a place where you can feel nothing but calm and peaceful.

I cannot wait for winter!

That’s all I’m going to say about the intense heat we are experiencing at the moment…

You guys are really an unpredictable lot, do you know that? I just can’t crack you… But I will… 😉 If I’ve got one good attribute, it is staying power.

So today, I’m going to write without passion, without emotion. I’m going to be very ladylike, very contained, and super soft spoken. Maybe that is the ticket…

The tomatoes I’ve bragged about a few times, have come to the end of their lives. They are all ‘tomatoed out’, not that that is a real expression, but I’m sure you know what I mean. I think it was mainly my own fault. They started off so well, and I got such a great yield at first, that I didn’t even think about giving them some extra plant food to keep them going. Silly me.

I’ve started new seedlings, and this time around I will definitely try and remember to give them some nutrition to keep them going. Until they start bearing fruit, I have to buy tomatoes again, which is a bummer – they just don’t taste the same.

Tiny new tomato seedlings top L, chili plants top R, and some straggly Italian parsley at the bottom.

I can’t remember if I told you that I recently discovered YouTube? I think I did, but anyway – I’ve used YouTube for years, but mainly to listen to music, or to find songs of which I know part of the lyrics but can’t remember the name, etc. Then there were a few things that I wanted to learn how to do, like mosaic crochet for example, so I started using YT for that as well.

Now it is my go-to channel. Netflix I find boring, their range is not big enough for me. And whatever else we have available here just doesn’t cut it either.

But YT has it all. I’ve discovered that I have a HUGE interest in archeology and history (who would’ve guessed!), and I like throwing in a bit of gymnastics every now and then, with a quick switch to a cooking channel, or a song or two. It has everything.

So while I am knitting or crocheting away to keep myself happy and calm (my therapy), I watch YT, and I am all the happier and calmer for it. Yay…

Destiny.

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♥♥♥

I often wonder about the way things are playing out in my life…

You know – why did this happen? How am I going to deal with that? Why don’t my plans work out? What am I doing wrong? What should I do next?

I always try and go back to my faith to keep me going. I know not everybody believes the same things I do, and I am not going to try and convert you or convince you of my viewpoint. But to me it is something I need in my life, and it works for me. If not for that, I might have run into the sea a long time ago! Or hit somebody with a baseball bat. Or I might have decided to go and live in a cave.

Sometimes it feels as if everything is working against me, to make life as difficult as possible. I don’t always know how to deal with that. I get emotional often, sometimes I talk about it, often I pray for guidance. I do allow myself a day to feel and emote, and then I have to carry on. Just because things aren’t going my way, does not mean the end of life – life carries on, and so should I.

Fortunately today is not one of the bad (emotional, sad) days, but I am wondering about the reason for certain important things being denied me (by outside influences, like Covid and the world’s hysteria about it) – it doesn’t make sense to me. I have to believe there is a reason for it, but for the life of me, I cannot imagine what those reasons can be…

Today is gardening day, so I will connect with Mother Earth, and hopefully that will soothe my ruffled feathers.

Whatever it is that you believe in (if not in God) – karma, serendipity, luck, bad luck, coincidence – I hope light shines on you today, and that you have a good one!! 😀

Emotionally yours.

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Aaaaaaarrrrgh….

Today sucks big time.

I know, I know…yesterday I was all ‘tonight’s gonna be a good night’, and now suddenly I’m all ‘woe is me’!

I’m sorry, but I’ve got stuff to get out of my system today. Yesterday one of my best friends told me they are leaving the country at the end of April. A few hours ago I get a call from another best friend, telling me she is at the airport, on her way to the UK, permanently. (She is in the air as we speak.) I knew they were planning the move, but this caught me off guard – they had to move up their plans because of – you guessed it – Covid! I am really starting to HATE that word and the whole global situation caused by it.

My SO* is on the other side of the country, which is maybe a good thing for him, because who would want to be with me today?? Not me, that’s for sure!

On top of that, I am missing my children. Not just missing them – I am MISSING them, and I am upset because they are so far away and I cannot see them or hug them or have coffee with them. I cannot hug my granddaughter or read to her. I’m pissed off, to put it simply.

I know, I can hear you – ‘oh boohoohoo, get over it!’ ‘Do you think you’re the only one in that situation?’ ‘And whining is going to change what?’ Etc.

I. KNOW. I’m not stupid (not totally, anyway). But this situation is real to me, and it bugs me.

Okay, I’m done. I don’t feel better yet, but I’m done.

Have a good weekend y’all!!!