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End of the week.

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Pic taken on our walk yesterday afternoon.

My timing sucks.

I have been slack in writing the last while, and now I choose to write on a Friday afternoon, when everybody is busy making plans for the evening and the weekend! Typical.

We had a busy-ish week, faffing around with a lot of small stuff, mostly to with the guesthouse still. It has also been a very stressful week business-wise, especially for my SO. So it is a relief that the weekend is here.

We have no plans for the weekend. Yet. Normally we decide to do ‘something’ at the last moment. Like, maybe, 10 o’clock tomorrow morning, my SO will say: “So where are we going today?” And then we’ll go somewhere and do something. For tonight, though, we most definitely do not have any plans.

So after walking Daisy, I am going to take a shower, and then I’m going to get into my PJ’s, pour myself a glass of wine, and chill.

Have a super weekend, and if it can’t be super, be safe, at least. ✌️

Rebelling.

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Atomic…. A modern nuclear bomb explosion in the desert.

I am battling with a few issues in my life at the moment.

Of course, this worldwide pandemic nonsense is not making any of these issues easier to digest, in fact, it has a direct negative impact on my ability to process it. I am not going to spell those ‘issues’ out for you, because that is not the important point here.

The point is, I am finding things difficult at the moment. I have to figure out how to cope with it, how to sort it out, without going completely bonkers.

Also, I am making it sound a whole lot worse than it is, which is not my intention. I do go about my day normally, but I am conscious all the time of something niggling at the back of my head, in my heart, my being.

I know for a fact that once the powers that be decide that the only way forward for the world is to carry on as normal, half of this weight will drop off of me.

I know a lot of people do not feel the same way, which is fine, but I also know a heck of a lot of people actually do. You feel your way, I feel my way – we are individual human beings, each with our own mindset, and that is maybe part of the big problem…

Here is the funny thing – the positive cases go up, the ‘leaders’ close things down – the numbers go down. Then they open up again, the numbers go up again. They close down again. And on and on. So, are they going to do this open/close game into infinity?

And while they are doing this, our lives are in limbo. Our businesses go under. Our family ties suffer. Our minds are going into places it has never been before. The rebel in us comes out.

I foresee trouble in the future, because there will come a day that the people on the ground decide enough is enough – we want our lives back. This cannot go on indefinitely. It has gone on too long as it is. And like I said, you are more than welcome to disagree with me.

Going slow.

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Horses in a field, on one of my walks.

Slow down. Take a deep breath.

I know it is Monday and all, but do you have to be in such a hurry? If you are five minutes late for work, will it be the end of the world?

A few years ago I heard about the ‘slow movement’ for the first time. I was curious, so I tried to find out what it was and what it meant. I loved what I discovered!

Slow living is a lifestyle that emphasises a slower approach to aspects of everyday life. It has been defined as movement or action at a relaxed or leisurely pace.” ~ Wikipedia

“It’s quality over quantity. It’s doing things with presence, being in the moment. ” ~ Carl HonorΓ©

More than the above, it is also seen as an opportunity to be self-sufficient, and it has changed so many people’s lives. Moving out of cities into rural areas or small towns. Getting in touch with nature and the earth. Spending more time together as families and so much less time running around worrying about making tons of money.

It started in Italy (where else!) with the emphasis on traditional food production techniques.

It is HUGE at the moment – just take a look at YouTube channels. A lot, and I mean a LOT of videos about people moving to cottages, and planting fruit and veg, keeping chickens and generally enjoying a slower pace of life. All of them with soft, ‘calming’ music playing in the background, of course… πŸ˜‰

I know, firsthand, that it is not always as easy and idyllic as it looks on Instagram or YouTube. You have to be very sure that that is what you want out of life. And then, if things get difficult, you have to stick it out, it will get easier.

Generally, I’ve noticed that the people that were successful at their jobs in the cities, find something in the country that rings their bell, and then they get very successful at that too! Like cheese making, or bee farming, or pickled quails’ eggs. It sort of defeats the purpose as far as I’m concerned, because that lands you right back into the rat race! But to each his own. I suppose that the difference is that now they work for themselves, and they don’t have to face the traffic every morning.

I am a huge fan of slow living. That does not mean that I am successful at it – however that ‘success’ may be defined. I plant veggies, like I told you in a previous post, so far spinach, tomatoes and runner beans. I sometimes try to can/pickle/cure – sauerkraut, preserved lemons, olives, etc. Once in a while I bake.

I do a lot of the things that people have stopped doing over the years due to a lack of time. But I do not always spend my time purposefully, that I have to admit. I spend a lot of time doing nothing, which is not ideal. I probably spend too much time on my laptop, but to my defense, I am trying to create a following for my blog!

I also play with my dog and take her for walks.

What I like the most – I get up slowly in the morning. I have a quiet mug of coffee outside in the garden, in my pj’s. And I start the day slowly, at my own pace.

Until next time, slow down, breathe! πŸ™‚

Full of nothingness…

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Waterfall in the Du Toit’s Kloof Pass.

I am stumped. Totally and utterly stumped.

Once in a while, I have something specific I know I want to talk about here. Other times, I read a few blogs, I open the ‘write’ page, and I start writing something. Often, after a few words, it doesn’t work for me, and I delete everything. But something always comes up that I can go with.

The last few days – nothing. I’ve tried, and I’ve deleted. Tried again.

Now, surprise, surprise!, I’m writing about not being able to write. Writer’s block. I never thought that I would be able to say that!

How is it, in a world full of crap, stress, hatred, intolerance and much more, that I can find nothing to say?

I must confess though, that it is actually nothing new to me. I’ve mentioned before that I am an introvert, and all my life I’ve watched and listened a lot more than I talked and interacted. But I am thinking about things, so one would think that I have something to say and write about?

Eeeeeeek!! What does that say about me? Air head? Bubble Head? Please no…

I am tired of all the bickering going on. I am tired of all the uncertainty. I am tired of being told where to go and where not to go. I am tired…

Maybe my brain is too.

Until next time, blog friends, stay safe and sane. πŸ™‚

Self therapy.

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Some crocheting going on at the moment.

When you are feeling stressed out, or unhappy, what do you do?

My first tendency is to want to sleep. The couch or my bed draws me like a magnet, and it is the hardest thing not to just give in and lie there, feeling sorry for myself. But somehow, up to now, I haven’t given in – yet. Somehow, on those down days, I’ve managed to get up and start my day and carry on relatively normally. (It sounds as if I am a permanently depressed old hag, which I am not, I swear! But I do have my days or my moments…)

Patchwork knitting.

What I do love doing on those days, though, is to keep my hands busy. So I pick up my piece of crochet or knitting, and I work away at that. It seems to bring calmness and order to my life again. You could ask how that helps, since it still leaves my mind free to think about all the ‘stuff’, but somehow it does. Maybe because my mind is busy with two things at a time, it lightens the load. If there is a pattern involved, even better, because then my problems and worries take a back seat as I concentrate on getting the pattern right.

I don’t keep my handwork only for the times that I feel down’ish’. Nowadays I cannot sit and watch TV without keeping my hands busy at the same time, so unless I’m really tired, I always have something that I’m working on in my hands. I’ve noticed that sometimes whatever is happening on the TV takes a backseat to my craft, and other times I get drawn into the program I’m watching, and the knitting is done on ‘automatic pilot’. (Which often results in having to ‘frog’ or undo a piece of my handiwork!) I will forever be grateful to my mom for teaching me to knit before I even went to school, and my grandmother and aunt for teaching me how to crochet at around 10 years of age. πŸ™‚

Daisy and crochet.

Other options of coping with stressful times, are gardening, walking, and maybe talking to somebody that knows me and my situation very well. I find that I shouldn’t try and cook or bake at such times – the results are then totally uninspired and uninteresting and unlike knitting, it cannot be frogged and redone!

I think in these weird times with information overload and viruses flying around, it is very important to find yourself a stress reliever that does not involve alcohol or any kind of drug, as addiction is not a worry you want to add to your load!

Till we chat again, relax, take it eee-heeeeasy!!! πŸ˜€